:: I Love Him But I cant Have Him ::

Love hurts. I say that because I know. Love is... or was amazing. 

It's an in credibl ethe way he has me on the edge of my seat because he's so completely random, 

I never know what's coming next. I

t's hard to explain, but he filled some void in me, and now, without him, 

I'm missing something again.

I wonder if it will ever truly, whole heartedly be filled again. 

I just don't want to know what it's like to hurt any more... 

I like to pretend everything's alright 

because when everyone thinks you're fine  

sometimes you forget for a while

that you're not

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you..
How go od you look when you smile.
How much I love your laugh.
I day-dream about you off and on,
replaying pieces of our conversation;
laughing at funny things that you said or did..
I've memorized your face &&
the way that you look at me..
I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine..
I wonder what will happen the next time we are together
& even though nothing will come out of this,
i know one thing for sure, for once.. i dont care,

i charish every moment i have with you.

I LOVE HIM BUT I CAN'T HAVE HIM !

Oh God..Help me please..The I comfort my Self The more I cry